It is funny how life changes. Or maybe it is just that we change. For the last three months I have had a new sense of me. A version of me that I am totally happy with. I am not trying to please 10 people at a time, and failing miserably I might add. Greg and I are in a great groove. I know it will never be just like back in those days where we were kids with no real worries. But, the worries and stress we have today, we can handle together. The emotional connection is there like it use to be. I am happy where we are with the kids. I might add that 3 year olds are great! We act as a family unit here lately, not just me and Greg as two individuals barely hanging on and keeping the kids needs met. But, the four of us are now in it together. I don't know if that really makes sense to anyone but me. I am more confident in myself here at 31 than I ever have been. I don't need to be chasing degrees or labels or positions to find value in my life. I like my role as a Christian, Wife, Mother and Employee. With this new found confidence, I feel like I am a better wife. I don't question every move I make. I know Greg and I are going to argue. Du... we argued like cats and dogs when we were dating. We will probably go to the grave arguing. The difference with it now, is that I don't panic and think every argument could lead to a divorce. We are stronger than that! I have finally realized it is healthy to disagee. Someone might actually learn and grow from a disagreement. The kids are fun! To sit and listen to the conversations they have with you, will blow your mind. Katie is going to be an activist. Every moring on the way to school, in one bad area of the road, where for some reason everyon thinks it is okay to throw out their trash, she tells me that "we need to get out here and pick up the garbage. Garbage isn't good to just be lying around outside. It will get stinky." What three year old knows this? I am so impressed, but see busy weekends in my future. I even have a new confidence in my appearance. Nothing has changed, no dieting or anything like that. I am just comfortable the way I am. It isn't that I am just comfortable, but that I am happy the way I am. I am not 16 anymore, I have had two babies and I want to look like I have had two babies. I think society loves to tell us how bad we look and tries to get us to focus on the crazy skinny girl they use for their cover shoots, but that isn't reality.
Oh well, enough of my rambling thoughts. Bottom line is that I am really happy with my life! I couln't ask for anything more.
